Well, so much for keeping up with this, but here we go.

TTC or Trying to Conceive

Sounds simple right, we not for everyone, at least not for us. Our journey started in December 2005 when I finally got sick of my birth control and went off it. We figured, if we get pg great, if we don't we will soon. Yah, right. I had never been really regular before birth control and the couple times that I had been off of it I was super irregular. Meaning 6 months without getting it.
Well got it in January, YAH, then March, YAH, then May, yah, yah, yah. Then nothing. for months. that is when we decided a doctor for help. What a life saver she is. She listened to me and my fears as by now I have already found the pregnancy websites and diagonsised myself with every problem in the book. She sent me from some tests and figured I just wasn't producing eggs. WHAT?!? Isn't that what a woman is supposed to do?

I have been taking everything lately with a grain of salt. People can't stop having kids or talking about babies, but sometimes I wish they would stop pushing us. It's not like it's as easy as going home and having sex. If only. I would have a little one of my own in my arms right now.

My SIL told us she and my brother are pg with their second. I am extremely happy, but in the same breath very sad for me and the possiblity of having kids. Another SIL, told me they are not actively trying, but not preventing. While doing this with her 2nd, she was pg in 2 months, so I don't hold hope that it will be long. Although infertility is something that I would not wish on my worse enemy. I gets you right at the core, down deep. It's like the lowest blow someone can do and Mother Nature sure must be pissed off at me.